Finding DB late in the game #4

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I am feeling better today. You know, I don't feel like I'm spending "his" money and I don't think he's ever felt that way. In terms of the house and family, we are a team. That's a positive, I guess.

H came by this morning to help with the extra kids we had over last night. He came up and hugged me right away. Interesting. When H left last night, he couldn't find his keys. For some reason, we never made a copy of H's car key, so it's the only one. It wasn't a problem last night because he rode the motorcycle, but he was concerned about the weekend with the kids. I told him not to worry, they were probably in his office.

My S slept with me last night as a treat. Some treat for me, the darn little guy snores and moves all around. It was bad enough when I was used to sleeping with someone, but much worse since I now sleep along. Anyway, I swore last night I found my H's keys on his bedside table. Heard S move and hit them. So I told H this this morning and looked all over the bedroom. I wondered if I dreamed it. (Had weird dreams last night. Dreamed Vince Vaughn left me a message on my answering machine. ?? ) Anyway, just got an email from him: "Found my keys. I was stressed for no reason and you were delusional :-) Who is crazier??"

On a more somber note, S5 this morning starts crying in bed over something really simple, so I said, "Just add that to the list of reason why you cry in the morning so then you can put it aside." (I have when he starts my day with crying, he's kind of a crybaby.) He replies, "I'm just so sad all the time now that Daddy doesn't live here." My heart broke some more. So later at breakfast with the neighbor's kids he said to them, "You know why I'm sad all the time? It's because my Dad doesn't live here anymore." H says, "There's always good, S5. You have to find things to be happy about." 1) put your money where your mouth is, dear and 2) VALIDATE! I AM learning!