My mom sent an email to me that I read in Costa Rica, that unfortunately my H read too. It basically said, "I hope your H realizes what a wonderful person you area, blah blah blah, and that he misses you. Of course, you have to make it so he has a chance to miss you." (IOW, cut him off.) On the way to the airport on our last day, H says "you're not going to do what your mom says are you?" I say "?" and he says "Well, you know. Make me miss you." I say "what made you think of that?" and he says "Because I want to see more of you, not less."
But that's not really how it's working out right now.
Only a guess here, but perhaps he's afraid that you will take your mom's advice. Maybe that's got something to do with why he was back on match after your trip.
My H knows that I turn to my family for emotional support, and of course, they are not happy about the sitch and all that has happened. He has always had this fear that I will do as they say, leave him, and never give him any kind of chance. Even now when he's back home, he still feels this. He believes that my family, especially my mother, have THAT much influence over me.
I have to remind H, quite frequently, that while my family is always there for me and they do offer their opinions and advice, they DO understand that I am an adult who can make my own decisions, and they respect that (with the exception of my mother sometimes ).
My H is just afraid that I will do what they tell me to do. Perhaps your H feels the same, and he slipped up.
What else does your H want? Looks to me as though he wants someone to take notice of him. He wants attention, and I think he wants YOUR attention, but after reading the e-mail, he now fears that he might not get it.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
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