I really don't have that much anger for him anymore. A lot of pity and sorrow for what he has done to his life. He has a life without self-awareness and growth.
Trusting - I can SO relate to this!! exactly where my h is.
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If I did not have the unconditional love I have for him and the bond of a covenant marriage, I would find this man so very unappealing and unattractive. He does not represent anything close to a mature, spiritual, masculine, man with integrity. He only represents a shattered child who is rebeling against the very thing I value the most -- family and committment.
Again my friend - it is like you put my mind right on paper. Amazing how two people (and many others like us) have the SAME EXACT thoughts and feelings.
T- my H sounds so much like yours. Pitful is the WORD to describe them - seeking whom they can blame for what they have chosen. NOT willing to face their stuff --- even when others around them would support them (NO PRESSURE FOR RELATIONSHIP) but truly support them through it. Just amazing....
Stay dark- do what you do so well. I am sorry he is such a dork.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
