Just a quick post as D2 and I are going to head to hometown to meet with my sister.. we're going to take my Mom out for an early Mother's Day... My Mom doesn't know that D2 and I are coming as well.. so that will be a pleasant surprise for her.
As for Canadian Idol.. yes, I am too old to be a contestant. But thank you all for your encouragement to go for it!
As for my sitch with H... nothing has changed, things are the same.. although our communication is much improved over a few months ago. From what he's told me.. he still struggles with wanting to come home vs. never wanting to come home. He said that there are many times when he finds himself wanting to come home.. but then there are also many days (and days often in succession) where the thought of coming back home "to the box" causes him enormous anxiety and he thinks it'll never happen.. So I don't know what will happen. I asked him to explain the "box" talk.. because I had been very accepting of his needs and have given him TONS of space even before the bomb.. and all he could say is that it's in his head (his mindset).
So.. I know there is some possible good in there.. but at the same time it just feels like this is never going to end.
