Help Me Act AS IF, Part 5

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Don't give your H the power. You didn't cry because you are strong, not because of anything he did to you. That was all you, baby! A little non-DBing for sure, try not to go there anymore. For a few weeks after my H and I separated, I got the blank looks, him avoiding eye contact. Today when he left (he came over for dinner and to help with the two extra kids who are sleeping over tonight), he gave me a really long, really tight hug. Whether that will turn into us not being S anymore, I don't know, but it's definite progress and I feel better.

I can't even think about dating again. I've already sworn off marrying again. This is my second marriage. (First one I was young, but the kicker was that H was an alcoholic and drug user. It's virutally impossible to work on your marriage problems when there's substance abuse in the way. Really bad sitch. Basically I left just before I felt it was going to turn into an abusive situation.)