Drowning, still...

[CBK]

Thanks SmartCookie, I have been reading your thread FG is giving you good advice.

I backslid, W asked what was wrong... dang if that didn't set me going.

Oh well, such is life. I can only be honest with myself - she is still afraid if I get his number - I really have no desire to get it or even call him. All's I ask is the boundary of not contacting him while we are still married - if that pushes D, then so be it. Right now, the way I feel, D is a welcome site. I did tell her, with my best composure - if you want to S or D, I will not stand in your way - you will be fine and I will be fine. I just pray that you be smart with this other man and don't let him hurt you. If, after you are done, you can see me as part of your life, I hope I am available. I will not give up on you and no stone will go unturned.

Oh well folks, I think I just went to the deep end...

My parents are coming in tomorrow, I don't want to tell them not to come, but I know they are really uncomfortable.

CBK