Supermom and the Brighter Tomorrow

[JennyF]

blindsided...

I wish I could only be as strong as you.

I think I just had an epiphany when I read this. You know people have used the word 'strong' a lot here...I honestly think that strength comes out of acceptance (there's that word again). It doesn't take strength to accept it....strength comes out of accepting. It's in you already.

Lizzy...I'm sorry your H is moving forward. Consider the mixed signals a good thing though. He's still spinning in his own confusion.
And yes...I do try to make the most of my time without the kids. I find the overnights hard because their absence is felt. But learning to live in the moment has helped me not dwell on what is missing when they're not here, but what I have to fill me up when they're not. And it's not about just keeping busy persay....but really involving myself completely with what I'm doing and dwelling on the positive about it. Sounds a bit hoaky I know...but man it works.

Try to keep your expectations down.

I can honestly that I don't have any expectations of H at all anymore. I expect him to be there for his kids (which he ultimately is), but other than that I expect nothing. I'm saving the expectations for myself, those I can control. Reasonable, healthy expectations.

Kerry...I've slowly been taking down pictures since the day H left. I just took the last one down last week and it was hard. When I was packing up his stuff and piling it together every now and then I would put a pic of the two of us into his pile. Like the one of us snorkeling in St. Lucia on our honeymoon. Why should I be the only one who has to look our memories and put them away. He's had it easy not living here with the constant reminders of the life we built together. He too can look at that picture and decide what to do with it...
As for the Thai food...it was fantastic!! I get the same Vegetarian dish every time...it's fried pineapple, tomato, mushrooms & tofu on pad thai noodles. It's got some really long name I can't pronounce...when I call in the order I just say "V-07" on the menu!
Drunken Noodles sound yummy!

Rachel....I don't know what to say. I think that is the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me. Thank you so much.
I wish I had more time to catch up on everyone's threads and I'm sorry if I've never popped by yours.

Thanks again to everyone for popping in! It so helps to feel all of your support.
Good night!
J~