Real life's getting more like fiction each day....

[Starshyne]

Good night Jeff. Thanks for saying Goodnight to me. It is nice to have someone tell me that....

Well...I did it. I have not called or TM or contacted H in any way for over 24 hours now. I haven't actually talked to him since Monday (unless you count Tuesday morning when he needed to use the bathroom and I was in there).

I know my goal is not to want to have contact with H, but I honestly do. My eyes well up with tears when I pull into the driveway and his car isn't there. I am working on it, but detatching isn't easy. I physically can do it, but the emotional part is difficult.

This might sound childish, but oh well. I hid the laundry detergent that I just bought. I see that H's dirty clothes are piling up (obviously since he doesn't come home) and he is eventually going to need to do his laundry. (I have stopped doing that for at least 3 weeks now) And I don't want him using my soap. He can go get his own soap...he is lucky to be using free water so I am not going to let him use the soap too.

On the back porch, he has stacked up a bunch of cups and mugs that I think were in his car. I don't know why he didn't take them inside the house, but I am not doing that either.

Right now I am holding out until May 19 and seeing if things change any. Besides that being 2 weeks of me detatching, that is also the day he starts taking his community college classes. I think things might change some once he starts in on the classes. I will see. But then if there is another OW (or the same OW from before), then things might be totally different.

Sara