Drowning, still...

[CBK]

I need to journal. My W called my IC over the weekend, I had to give permission for him to call her back. He basically said prepare for the worst, she is wants out of the M and that is what is going to happen in two 1/2 weeks when we see the MC. I am so pissed off right now, I can't even see straight. I could only hit about 30 balls, then gave my bucket away - So WTF am I supposed to do... I can't even be civil to her right now I am so pissed off.

So I will let her fantasy play out, I will be a "good f#(ing guy" and not fight her. I will go dark as possible while living in the same house - right now, I just want to scream and cry. A lot of good that got me. I don't know if I would have listened earlier if DBing would have worked. This has only been 7 weeks! I read stories where folks go through a few months before this happens - finding the DB web site late.

I don't know what to do or where to go. Right now, I just hate her - I know strong work, but F HER. I am so pissed of right now.

What a sad sack I am - boo hoo. I know.

Sorry all, CBK