Drowning, still...

[CBK]

Just got back - luckily I have a good IC. I am not going to talk to W tonight. The only thing the C said if W asked anything about my backslide on Saturday...

W, put yourself in my shoes - lets say I was in an A, you wanted to work on the M, I was still in contact with OW AND we are in the same house - what would you think? Of course I am going to get emotional and get upset or sad. In fact, C said this is a unique sitc' (he should read this board) and that anybody would react with emotions. But he also said as long as W is with OM, there is no hope for our M. So I need to get to a place where I can tolerate the sitc' and no longer worry about her. I feel better right now, will go hit my bucket of balls in a bit. Right now, I have no desire to be home, even with my kids here.

I now, boo hoo, grow a pair.

CBK