Okay, I am feeling pretty low right now. I don't want to talk to W any more, I go through these stages, remembering what I read, saying that she wants out, just want to lessen my hurt. That convo over the weekend where I was just pissed and yelling reminds her how bad it can be - She thinks all these 180's I am doing is to just erase the slate. I want to work on our relationship, but know that the other guy is still in the picture. She is not supposed to see him or talk to him, I am 90% sure she has. She is going past boundaries and not living up to her promises...

What good would me having her tell the kids and her mom that she is having an A. Would this just push her further away? Does it matter anymore, can she be pushed even further?

I am going to counseling today - need to run this all by him. I am really low right now. Was doing so well, feel like I am once again drowning...

CBK

M=46 W=47 M=24 (together 26) D21, S19
Bomb 3/16/08 OM 3/28/08 WAW moved out 5/16
Divorce final 10/09