but I think he finds them appealing because he feels like he can leave now that he sees I'm not as crazy as he thought.
You need to stop thinking like this. What's appealing about us is just appealing about us. There is no buts. You improve for yourself and don't give a hoot about how your H thinks of the improvements. What he thinks is what he thinks. This is something I'm trying to stop doing: thinking for my H. It's a problem and even my T has pointed it out to me.,
Me: 42/H: 37 T: 10 years/M: 8 D9, S8 Bomb: 7.23.07 Separated: 1.20.08 D Final 3.19.09 Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09