Sara: I know that there is nothing I can do to change him. Nothing at all. I also know that until he gets his relationship right with God again, his relationship with me isn't going to go anywhere. Right now he is just moving himself farther and farther away from God and from me.
I feel the same way, What went wrong, I know we didn't do anything at least anything that if asked we wouldn't change for our S.
I was yelling at God the other day, becasue I hurt so bad, I don't know why he is doing this to me. I know you feel the same way.
This is so hard, have to keep thinking that nothing stays the same, either H/W will chnage or we will move on with our lives. From your post, I know you had it and you are not going to put up with H forever. I'm the same way, if W doesn't change or want to reconcile by June 09, I'll move on with my life. I really don't think I'll have to wait that long, becasue I should know several month after kids are back in school fulltime and she isn't seeing kids or me for weeks, I'm not going to let her stop by anytime she wants she'll have to schedule time with the kids, I'm not going to interrupt our schedule because she wants to play mommy for awhile. Enough about me.
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Sara: I do feel trapped. Which is almost funny because he is the one that kept saying how trapped he felt. But I feel trapped. Right now I do not have a lot of choices and I hate that. Hate how everything seem totally out of my control. I am sick of riding this roller coaster and regret the day several months ago when I said that my life was boring and nothing ever happens.
I feel trapped also, isn't that strange, its the excuse they give to do what they want, and the way we feel becasue of the situation they put us in. I'm headed on the down slope today on my roller coaster, last night was going up, had dinner with W and kids and all went as a family to D9 school show.
Summer is going to be hard seeing W arrive in the morning to take care of kids and leave at night to take care of OM - Do you have plans for the summer, with being a teacher, don't you have a lot of free time in the summer - will that be more difficult to deal with H or ae you still involved with something.
Checking my spelling so teacher doesn't give me a "F"
M45 W41 M10 D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me PA confirmed 03/08 no sex yet ??? hoping !!! WHAMMO - W moving out June 1st
