I've been feeling a little off all week though. Almost feeling like I was a few months ago. I think it's a combination of things. One that I found what OW is all about and so it now seems so much more obvious that it's only a matter of time before that ends. But also because of H being friendly with me yesterday and suggesting putting the house up a week later. Now unlike the old me I'm not looking at any of this as even remotely a sign of hope. This time I am staying the course and continuing to focus on me and moving myself forward. The house will be on the market on Monday. The way I see it is that even if things are getting shaky with him...perhaps it's partially because of my current mindset. So I'll keep doing more of the same and let it play out.
H has both kids overnight tonight. :-( I feel like a piece of me is missing when they're not home and I find it hard to motivate myself to do anything else. And I have a LOT to do. Not to mention this is the perfect night for me to do it because I will have the kids all weekend. So I'm going to pack some boxes up for a couple hours and then pick up Thai food and head over to a friends. I am DYING for spicey food! I officially stopped nursing yesterday so now I can eat what I want. I'm a little sad about the nursing, but it really felt like the right time for both of us. It was done very gradually. That's it for now. J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
