~ Thanks again Gel for your post.. it is a relief for you to tell me it takes time. Cause like I said I am moving at a snails pace.....


It is not that I dont want sex it just seems to be that way... my H in the past has never really let me initiate and he "pressures" me into coming First and also one "O" isnt enough sometimes he wants me to have several and that for me is not a turn on. In fact in the book PM *somewhere* it says he is actually not doing something loving by wanting me to always come first.

I can have multiple O and I can be a dynamo ... but to put it in a nutshell sometimes I feel so much pressure I cant even get HOT!
~Bleh... I do wish he would agree to see a sex therapist but he thinks I am the only one with the problem....... I am an erotic Woman it just isnt working right now.....


This is complex and I will keep posting and keep looking at myself from within .....


Thanks again for your post.. this too will take some time.
I did have a tiny hope in me it would be faster ....
I am thinking too much or am I not thinking enough? That is the real question?

I also know that when I was excercising daily I seemed to just naturally be more in the mood.
Also I allowed him to throw my self esteem in the gutter for a very long time and I think that has a lot to do with our current issue.

I would love some clear cut paths but even I cant see my way thru the forest.......... UUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!
Love and God bless.......