So really....I don't have any GOOD choices. None that will benefit me and make me happy.
You only say that because you don't believe that any changes you make can actually take you to your goal. But with time and self-love, you will reach your ultimate goal - to be happy, with or without H.
The longer this drags on, the more convinced I become that you need to go VERY dim or dark on your H. For your own sanity. Living apart was the only thing that allowed me to detach from my H and the stitch so that I wasn't thinking about it 24/7. It helped me regain my equilibrium.
You need to do something for yourself to help you regain your equilibrium too. I think it is a start to not call H. You need to stick it out - it will get easier in a few days.
(((((((Sara)))))))) I have been there, I know it's hard, but it does get better. Hang in there.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
