Sara,

You say this:

Originally Posted By: Starshyne
I know this all is going to take time and he might not react at all to the detatching I have been doing.


But you also said this:

Originally Posted By: Starshyne
I heard my cell phone going off during the day today. When I went to check it during lunch it was from my mom. I was really hoping it was from H.


(((((((Sara,)))))))

You are NOT detaching. I know you're trying, I KNOW, but I believe you NEED to try HARDER. Let go. STOP your thoughts regarding your H. Quickly think of something else. Papers to grade , what YOU feel like having for dinner tonight, ANYTHING else. ANYTHING!

What makes Sara feel happy? What brings a smile to SARA'S face? There's GOT TO BE something that DOES NOT involve your H. SOMETHING. What is it?

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell