Help Me Act AS IF, Part 5

[newnamenewlife]

Of course I could be a better LMG (lol love the code names!) I've changed some things in the past year or two, things that I knew my H didn't like and I didn't either. And he has noticed--for instance, this morning D11 started shouting at me, telling me she hates me--y'know, that special kind of love only a pre-teen can deliver. The old me would have reacted, yelled back at her, scolded her, threatened her. The new me said nothing at all. I just stood there silently until her tirade was over.

H later commented on how I'd let her words roll off my back like water off a duck, or something. He has noticed several little changes in me--but I think he finds them appealing because he feels like he can leave now that he sees I'm not as crazy as he thought. I feel like a baby bird being pushed out of the nest--or being left in the nest, as it is.

I do plan to work on myself, I do. I am going to a volunteer fair next week to find out where I might volunteer in the neighborhood. Of course, what I really need now it to make MONEY. That aspect of this is overwhelming.