I'm obviously not comfortable with any decisions I make for myself since I made such a horrific mess of my life when I thought I could do it on my own.
Oh sweetie, I hate that you feel this way. Someitmes the lesson is to be able to see that we aren't in the right place and (without judgement) let the folks involved know and move on (I'm talking the groups here). Perhaps part of your walk is to find the hight tensile steel you have in your veins. It's there you know.
