You all are so wonderful \:\) ! (((((((Thanks so much, Nik and Jeff)))))))

Originally Posted By: NikB
I sure hope SOMETHING works to cause your H to wake up.


That sure would be nice!

I honestly feel as though I've tried everything, and even after going as far as I have with talking to H about how I shouldn't be the only one in this M making changes for the better, I still don't think he really understands. That's really too bad.

I feel very numb again....just like in the beginning. So I'm just going to continue doing my thing. While being the best mom and homemaker that I can be, I will not try to talk to H about spending time together anymore. He can do his own thing, and I will do mine. I will completely drop the rope again, I will be cordial with him, and I will see if anything changes in him over the next couple weeks. If there isn't the slightest bit of progress, I will continue with the D next month. I don't see any other alternative. I refuse to be in a R, let alone my M, with someone who doesn't care about my needs.

And if this does end in D, then at least I DO know that I tried, and I also know that should I ever get into another R, I will be properly equipped with the right R tools this time around - honesty, communication, and compromise.

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Tower Park eh? In the Delta near Sac?


Yep, that's the place! \:\) Unfortunately, I won't be going there after all (the boys are still going with my parents though). I'll be GAL in a different way this weekend! My stepdad asked me if I would be willing to help out with his brother's antibiotics treatment (through an IV) which is to start this weekend. A nurse from one of the local hospitals is to meet me at his brother's house on Saturday to show me how to flush and administer the meds through his IV. Then on Sunday, the nurse will be there again but only to watch me do the procedure, making sure I do it properly.

Should be kind of interesting. I just hope I don't see blood! I can handle seeing it in the movies, but up close and if it doesn't belong to me or my babies.... ! Nah, I'll be alright! ;\) \:\)

So now I'll have to plan something else to do over the weekend (the procedure for my stepdad's brother will only be for 2 hours during the day). H will be working, so I think that's kind of good. It'll help me with detaching even more.

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell