It's Starting

[Lissie]

Thank you all for your wonderful words, and just for having my back thru all of this crap.

Last night was just, draining. Susan called me at home, I told her the ground rules of how my children should be treated.

She also told me things like, Javier's mom has met her, Had Easter dinner at her house with her kids. She also told me that she has met his sister, and her husband, at Javier's moms house.

So Javier's mom and sister lying to me, telling me they will never meet her, or love her, and that I am the only DIL for them
is just more BS.

Alot of BS has been going around.

She has been so lied too, as have I.

Well, that is pretty typical. She is under the impression, that she is not a whore, and that she did nothing wrong, and that her and Javier did not have an affair.

It is me who thinks that only.

blah, blah.

She never asks Javier any questions, and just takes Javier's word for everything, even tho she has a nagging feeling in her stomach that he has lied to her.

She said to me, Why don't you give me a copy of your divorce decree, I said I wouldn't even give youa copy of my foot up your ass, never mind a decree.

Javier had the balls to invite her to my D's birthday party on this May. And he told her that I will make a scene if i see her there.

I said you are not invited or allowed anywhere near my children or our festivities ever.

Um, does he think that Mia will be ok with this? I mean ruining her day at her bday party with her friends?

I don't understand. I don't understand how him and his family, think I am the one making a big deal out of things.



I sometimes feel like i had to go thru all of this, so i can wake the hell up.

I have been sheltered, and very protected, from so many things.

I have to know that not everyone stands by the right thing to do.

I have now realized, that people will lie at the drop of a hat to benefit themselves.


The dumb part, is i still get shocked about it.
Life lessons, I am learning every day. It sucks

I am tired, and drained.

I am just done with all of them. I do not want my life mingled with any of them ever again.

I wish he was not the father of my children.

I am trying not to carry hate in my heart.

I have to get myself centered again, and in a good place.

Sorry for the ramble.

Thanks for listening.

besos.