Count down to separation - so we can "try".

[Abbey]

I'm catching him in little lies... things that he really should have no reason to lie about... unless of course he's accounting for his time, saying he's working so he can be with "her"... who knows.

I did say way back, that it wouldn't surprise me if he and she got back "on" for a while after I left. Rumors about that Paton Place town have already started to filter back to me... everything from he "hates" the critters (that's just funny unless he's the best actor in the world)... or he's got multi personalities.

It does still feel like this person is a completely DIFFERENT person than the person I thought I knew years ago. Alien abduction, I tell ya, alien abduction. *shakes head*

The trust thing is going to be huge for us because of my feelings of utter emotional abandonment at times over the last 4 years by him. If all of this wacko behavior, and what it's done to me is simply to HIDE his affair... then we're into a completely diff kettle of fish. This is not someone I'll want in my life, period.

Being on meds though... something has occurred to me... his wacko behavior is as the therapist suggested... bruised ego and "hurt" over the relationship hitting the skids. Everything he seems to be doing is to soothe his sore paws over it. Wacko behavior and all.... it's really not about me at all... even though he's lying to me etc... it's about him being out of his head and control.

Abbey