Supermom and the Brighter Tomorrow

[JennyF]

It amazes me how everything can be so unchanged for so long and then bam! It's all happening at once.

So I got more scoop today. H really dug himself a hole with the party on the weekend with a lot of people.
Apparently, OW was passed out in his truck for a couple hours. At 4AM the host of the party looked out and his truck was gone. She called him and he said he put her in the front seat and SHE DROVE to his Mom's. OMG. I am beside myself. Drinking and driving is something we never ever ever do. In 9 years I've never had one incident where H drove when he shouldn't have nor would he ever get in the car with someone who was drunk. No way. Now this? He's got 2 kids for Godsake! I just don't get it.

My friend came over to see me tonight, the one who hosted the party. She feels bad about it all and apologized for hurting me. It was a great talk. I finally got to share some of the 'other side' with her and I think it was an eyeopener for her in a lot of ways. She admits she's kept herself pretty uninfromed on purpose. But I told her that his version things is not reality. She's starting to get that and apparently so are a lot of people.
When people met OW and saw what she is all about (a maneater), I think they can all see how he was seduced and has just gotten himself in to deep.

SO...on top of all this H has been really nice to me this week. He brought me boxes for packing and is being quite friendly. Weird. I don't know....could be he's afraid I'm finding out the details from the weekend. But the little DB devil in me thinks that the little seed of doubt might have finally been planted.
I'm trying not to read too much into it and it is not changing my actions or outlook at this time.
I love this part of DB'ing....doing what I'm doing for me and knowing that it could be working on H, but if it's not...who cares! I'm going to be fine!
He lingered a bit when he brought the kids home tonight. He asked me if I has signed my papers (I already told him did), but I just said yes. He told me he was doing his tomorrow (he already told me that).
Then I told him that the real estate agent was coming to put the house up on Monday...and he said...but I thought you had to get the house ready...why don't you wait and get it ready next weekend? The guys been pushing me since S was 3 wks old to sell this house and now he wants to delay it a week?
So I said that if I want the house I found I have to get this house up sooner than later.
At that point I'm feeling a teeny bit emotional...I held it together but I had a sad look. I said, it's just hard to sell the house. He said, why don't you stay here then? I said you know that's not the point. And he really looked at me for the first time in a long time. Weird.
Then he continued to talk cute talk about S and stuff and he left.

I have a suspicion that he's starting to see OW as flawed and hopefully I'm not looking so bad afterall. It's funny how it is all playing out exactly how all those WAS stories do....it's bang on.

W2G...I did think about H moving into the other house with me if we were to give it another try. I'm making all my decisions as if it is over, but the way I see it....no amount of paper work or living arrangements will prevent us from coming back together if that is what is meant to be.
Time will tell. I think it's starting to!
J~