ok so H called today and informed me he is going on vacation sunday thru wed or thursday. Claims to be going with some guy friend of which I dont know, and he hasent talked to in months. I was livid to say the least. He cant ever seem to take an hour off of work to spend with his family, mostly his son but now he can up and leave for 4-5 days. Plus I am worried that he may be going with OW. I intend on asking him at some point but I know he wouldnt tell me the truth if he was. Besides all this we really dont have the money for him to go as he just went on a fishing trip last weekend!! I"m so frustrated it feels like it's always something and I am really tired of his selfish behavior. I hate that I get pissed about something for a day then forgive him and go back down the cheeseless tunnel! I think it's time I took a stand. I think I want to tell H, I want to our M to work but until he is 100% committed; meaning no contanct with OW and no more selfish behavior, then I am done. I would have told him he couldnt go and I know H realizes that by my reaction but it's still hurtful that he never asked my opinion either. I guess I cant make him be a good dad or a good husband for that matter, I just dont understand how it's ok with him to be away from his son this much......
