We met with the realtor today. We were here alone for a few minutes before she got here. I decided that I didn't want to perpetuate the total lack of communication betw us, so I asked if he had any comments or concerns that he wanted me to be aware of abt the process. He said that he was going to ask me that and tried to turn the question back around to me. This is something he does routinely, so I wouldn't allow it and said I asked him 1st. He wanted to know what I want out of the house (in terms of the equity), but I didn't really answer him. I plan to draw up a property agreement, but I'm not quite there yet. Then, he said that this step of selling the house must mean that I was ready to move forward and that he was ready to move forward, too. For some stupid reason, I was not prepared to hear that today. I wasn't prepared to talk about anything but the house/property. I froze. I just responded that all I was doing was trying to get the house on the market. He said, ok, we can take it one step at a time.
I wish I could find my acceptance of how things are, but I just can't. I can't truthfully say, OK, I let you go and I will be fine no matter what. I will be fine - that's not the part I struggle with. It's the letting go - I understand that, when you actually let go, it changes the dynamics of the sitch, but understanding it and feeling/acting on it seem to be two different things for me. I think I want to let go, but what's holding me back?
me: 47 H: 48 he has 2 grown sons M 1995(my 1st, his 3rd) hit iceberg 6/07 S 9/26/07 before now
