Mishka's- new thread/new tude - H who?

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Apparently, I have not been dramatic enough to get any words of encouragement or yelling at me to shut up and get over it already, but I'll keep journaling here anyway.

Ok, forgive the sarcastic comment. I do genuinely like all of you here, just feeling a little lost and lonely.

No word from H today, no hope of any word from him today. He said he's going to call me Saturday morning about taking S13 to Renaissance Fair. We always talked about going but we never went because he always had something else to do and now he's going to go. AARRGGHH!!!

I'm volunteering with my church Saturday morning at a local gas station where we're discounting gas 25 cents per gallon for two hours as a community outreach. We're washing windows and handing out information about our church. It should be fun. I want to plan something else to do after that but I don't have anyone to do anything with and I just can't seem to force myself to go anywhere by myself. I feel so conspicuous.

Tonight is my last Divorce Care group meeting. I'm so depressed. I'm going to miss having somewhere to go every Wednesday where I feel accepted and that my feelings are respected.