I sometimes wonder if I will ever feel happy again. I know that I will in time, but even when I am doing things I enjoy, there is this nagging unhappy feeling inside of me. I just desire to find that normal feeling again and keep it.
You WILL feel happy again, Sara. I know what you mean, though. The pain is an ever-present entity and makes its presence known no matter what you're doing. You need to start getting "out there" more - really focusing on yourself. I know you have a social phobia... maybe it's time to really work on that. You obviously have so much going for you. I hate for you to feel so trapped.
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence
