I was right. Just as I got outside to get the kids on the buses, rain came pouring out. I had an umbrella, but the kids didn't. The driveway here at school looks flooded. Crazy. \

I made it through the whole work day without texting or trying to call H. Now I need to carry that through into the evening. Why does each day seem to drag on so long? Uhh!

I sometimes wonder if I will ever feel happy again. I know that I will in time, but even when I am doing things I enjoy, there is this nagging unhappy feeling inside of me. I just desire to find that normal feeling again and keep it.

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08