hey there)))))) it takes a while for the heart to catch up with the brain, to understand that this is happening, it's ok to grieve, you are not hopeless you are just hurting and with all reason, there is a time for everything, later on you will make time to heal. Just know that you will feel better, that you will slowly make your own brand new path in life. Just try and keep busy, you came to this boards to fight for your M, that isnt' failure to me, faults and all (who here can say they never screwed up while dbing?) you gave it all you got and now it is time to move in a different direction, you are not defeated, just knocked down for bit.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
