And so it begins....

[one_light]

Hello,

I am coming here from the newbies board. I have the Final Decree on my desk and as soon as it is signed and filed today, I will be officially divorced. I feel numb, lost, hopeless, and alone. I know and understand the conventional wisdom that I get to keep all the changes I have made while going through this process. I can sincerely say the changes have been significant. My heart, however, does not seem to care.

I do not want this. I have spent the last 5 months in separation Dbing, backsliding, and Dbing some more. I’m sorry to say that I have failed. I think a link to my sitch is in my sig if anyone is interested. I have read many of your sitches and most of you seem to be much farther along than I am. I hope that I might benefit from your wisdom.

This is so hard. I miss my W so much. I have not wrapped my mind around the fact that she will no longer be in my life. It is so hard to imagine a life without her. This is hell.