Just Honest..

[kikifree]

Hey there Nutty,

I'm just so over all this right now. I do not want contact with THIS H .

I feel blah about it all.

H hasn't contacted D7 since Thursday. Of course, he will take it out on her.

D7 and I have so much fun together. We were shopping for mom's day today and she slipped me a card for me. She told me not to look at it.

she also convinced my sister to bu me something and is locked in her room right now working on it. I am very blessed.

I just keep looking forward towards the court date in June.

I want this over.

i bought H's mom a little something from D7 I will send to her. even though she isn't a part of my life, I will continue being who I am.

In reading so many threads , H's are having relationships with OW and they are not even divorced . How can that be normal in their lives?

My H would say he would never leave his family..never do things he has done. But it even seems like he has no remorse.

It is easy doing no contact when H has fallen off of the face of this earth.

His love for D7 seems so conditional. He is delusional

when he claims to be a good father.

I have the best sister in the whole world. H use to say she didnt care for me(we are twins( but she has held me up through all this. It is amazing!

Even through his storm, I am blessed.

Sometimes I just want to give up on the poor soul H has become.

[peacetoday]

Kiki
You are amazingly strong and have stuck this out for a long time
Im glad your sister could be there for you during the storm
just continue taking care of yourself and D 7
hopefully all will be ok in all our situations
may not be the fairy tale endings we all prayed for but we have become stronger and will help many who find there way to this path
I alos think the less contact you have right now with H the better, he just doesnt deserve you
peace

[kikifree]

Hey Peace,

My 180 is just giving H what he dishes out. i have been patient and calm and left him alone. Now, I leave him completely alone.

H is still dark.

Hasn't contacted D7. Again, he takes it out on her.

I cannot believe I married this person. I get mad at myself for that.

There are so many married men who are loyal and devoted to their families. I just picked the rotten apple.!!

I was not a perfect wife , but I was ALWAYS a loving wife. h got whatever he wanted from me.

WE had a great sex life, I always made every birthday and holiday special for him.

I have grown a backbone.
This is not about me.

[peacetoday]

Kiki
I agree
it is not about us
but we have to ride this Roller coaster out
yes we have all become strong
we will all be ok
peace

[Upside]

Hi kiki-
I don't understand your H. I can't believe that he takes things out on your D. I guess that just goes to show how deep your H's depression goes.

We are all dealt a hand in life and it is up to us to figure out how to play it. So you didn't get the best deal in the first round...but there are lots of cards left...it will be interesting to see how you play the rest of your cards. I believe you will come out a winner regardless of what your H does.

You know this isn't about you or your D. You could have been the perfect W and it still wouldn't have been good enough. Let your H go do whatever it is he needs to do and live your life...and live it as well as you can. Life is too short to waste on what might happen in the future.

<3
Upside

[kikifree]

Hi peace and Upside,

Nope, H still hasn't contacted D7. How sad.

We can only live our lives.


I had a dream about him last night. It felt so real. Weird.

Tom. he is supposed to pick her up. WE will see if he continues being distant.

[peacetoday]

Kiki
we have to live our lives and move on in every possible way maybe except dating
peace

[kikifree]

H is still very dark.

I have no idea if he is picking her up today. It is his day.

Our conv. last Thurs. has changed everything it seems.


H also has not sent me the check.

I wonder if he will hold it back.

I'm nervous about it.

Who knows...

[kikifree]

OMG!!! It is crazythe stories I read .

These MLCER are really INSANE!!!!

I start to wonder if I am sane!!!!!

[Jeanette1120]

Of course you are not insane!!

You are a strong caring woman, that is slowly being driven nuts!!

Don't let it get to you, just keep moving forward.

Make sure you keep your sense of humor!!!!

I think our emotions are intensified throughout this ordeal. We FEEL things much deeper than before.

It's like we've pick up the emotions the MLC'ers have thrown away or shut off from thier other personality.

Better for us to be more than ever aware of life, love, happiness and the sadness of others. Better for us to become better parents, friends, co-workers, family members.

Just better for us all around!

Hugs!!
Jeanette