For the guy with kids and WW II

[hopeful4her]

I thought WW was going to be off today. She got ready for work as usual. I hope she is going to work. I woke WW up and started on breakfast. I let her wake the kids today. I think she has been missing doing that. I started on lunches and decided to have tuna sandwich today. I know she likes tuna, so I ask her if she wants lunch. A quick no. She must have plans. Oh well. Kids are off and she takes a shower. She comes out and tells me to go take mine. I barely take my bread out and leave it on the counter. I come out thinking she might have made my lunch or at least my sandwich, but no. She did prepare my coffee for me, though. I'll take that. After her smoke, WW joins me on sofa. A little small talk

Last night I mention doing something this Saturday. Like a state park or something for the day. Maybe hiking. She told me to make the plans, but an odd look on her face. Like I guess so. Maybe she was making plans for Saturday for herself. Maybe she thinks I am trying too hard. Dunno. This morning I mention maybe a day trip to the coast. Same look. She says if I want to. She mentions it will be hot. She asks me if I'm ready to leave and we are out the door. I follow her to her car. I want to give her a kiss goodbye, but at the last minute decide against. I have already followed her to her car and she turns to look at me like, why am I behind her and not walking to my car. I make up something and tell her that I will try to get off work early, but I doubt it. I felt stupid. I tell her to have a "dia fantastico" and as we leave, she rolls down her window and asks me if I want any cigarette. I mouth to her, trying to quit.

In town, we are at the stop light and I pull up next to her. I look her and bite my fist like I'm having withdrawls. I am purposely trying to be funny. She sees me and puffs her cig hard and blows smoke toward me. I laugh. She offers to throw a cig through the passenger window to me and I give the no sign.

I take off and head on my way to work.

I want to go to lunch with someone. Maybe I'll call the woman I hung out with at the carnival. I don't know if I am just feeling lonely or vindictive or both.