I have a day off and I finally got to go on the boards..thank God!
Thanks for posting!
First to shattered: my h and I have been officially living back together as of Jan. 1 2007, but we were sleeping together 3 weeks after he left (about once twice a week at first) then we were together about every other day...and he would spend the night every other night too...he was saying strange things like..."no stings attached right?" well, I should of then knew something was up...Now that all the truth is out, this is what the bottom line is...he was rejected by 21 year old GIRL and was pretty much with me to get over her...that is a hard one to swallow to say the least. But that is why I have to really stay on track with my PMA, GAl, and work it towards me for me.
The answer your other question...I was pretty much controling in our M before he left and I had become really distant (that was his excuse for leaving...it was really his EA that he left for...finally got that truth out of him)...so anyways...I do believe sometimes he is a bit afraid of me...now anyways, he does notice that I am back on track for me...and I did tell him that I need to get my self-esteem back, and work on me for me..and the thing is this...the other night he had to play for a party (the drums) and the band leader told me how he liked my hair (high lights) and that I looked really young, he asked my h if he was my dad...well, that did wake my h up a bit, and he has been telling me how other men look at me alot (I guess he see's them in the stores etc)...so in away, I guess that he is a bit afraid of my changes...
Hey Joie, Yes it is amazing how wise our D's are! Mine keeps giving my h the business! She tells him how selfish he is cause he only thinks of himself first and not me first... and at one point, that silly girl..she told me that I need to stop giving him so much, I am teaching her that a man comes first and me...that was the real wake-up call for me..I became the very thing I HATE... a door mate! So that is why I have to DBing again!
Hey SD... I have missed you sooooooooo much...ya, the wine sounds sooo great...and you reminded me that I need to get some again..I loved how we would come on the boards and have our wine together! Have you heard from joker man or charishher? If so how are they doing? I am so happy for ya hun! You are so wise, and you do so deserve so much happiness...and you are so right about the detaching, I am trying to do it again..I think I was beginning to go a bit crazy...but hopefully I am back to sainity and can keep growing into the woman I want and need to be!
Thanks again everyone for posting, you insight and in-couragement means the world to me!!!!
