h dropped bomb end of feb. I don't love you, etc. we decided to go to mc (my idea) for three months and during that time he agreed to stay in the house. I got book DR right away. Actually, during first month, I was pretty good at db'ing. giving him space, no R talks and we actually started having the best sex of our relatioship! I felt a "softening". Then I found out about the affair. yes, he's having an affair. things got bad really fast. we weren't able to go to first counseling session until AFTER I found out about the affair becuase it look me that long to fine one. it was a disaster.

h moved out 3 weeks ago. he's renting a room at a colleages (not ow) condo. Now I found out that he actually found an apartment (with a room for our daughter 5,) and I felt like I got kicked in the stomach. Now it just seems so real! My d will have ANOTHER bedroom and if h is getting a proper apartment, it just feel like he's really serious about all this.

Last night he told me affair ended (I don't really believe him). He said ow felt guilt about the situation and couldn't do it. yeah, right.

I know it going to take a lot of time to get past the pain, but getting an apartment, etc, just feels so real and scary.