Thank you guys, you are my best friends in this. I have been out of town, in Santa Barbara, for few days, seeing old friends, getting some new working projects, dealing with stuff that is part of being a better me, or more precisely my old self. It was very good and I love that place! I also got some family in town, taking care of me and spoiling me a bit - this is also was very good, I needed that. About my sitch I am totally exhausted, I see you guys are so much stronger then me, you are a big reference. If it wasn't for the kids I would be done, I can only take so much pain. In the last few days I have been detached a lot - W has been calling me a bit more and trying to be nice, trying to be a "friend" and make conversation. My message was clear and true, as long as there is another man in her life I am NOT going to be her friend or whatever. She asked me if I expect for her to be single for the rest of her life, I said yes..... she said I was cute..... I am done with the talking. I agree with you guys on this: nobody can take away my integrity.
