Thanks for checking in. I can only hope that one day W will be able to face whatever she's running from b/c I won't always be around to blame. Right now, I'm the reason for all her unhappiness and I really hope she'll be able to work on herself one day and finally be happy.
As for me, I'm down again. I just got this text from W:
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OMG. g just said u dont want 2 live w daddy bcuz it isnt safe -right? Bcuz he always yells @ u? Yes, baby. Mommy? Daddy acts like a baby…but he is really scary. He doesnt do that 2 me - yet.
If this is indeed what D said, then W has been badmouthing me in front of her and she did NOTHING to alleviate any concerns of D toward me. Has she been coaching D to think I'm a monster? Has D overheard her conversations w/ people? What if my little girl is afraid of me b/c of what W has said and done? I'm so saddened by this.
Why can't the legal system hurry up and allow me to consistently see my D? Why is W in charge? Why does she get to call all the shots right now? I'm frustrated, heart-broken and sickened to think my sweet baby girl may be learning to fear me.
Can my actions alone overcome these biases from her mother? I hope so. I really do.
I did get to speak w/ her briefly tonight and told her I loved her and to have a good night. She said she'd like to call me back and I would love it if she did.
