Real life's getting more like fiction each day....

[Starshyne]

I don't know why H bothered to leave me the note about him working when he hasn't came home. I called him once, there was no answer and I left it at that. No texting, no voice mail messages...not too bad.

Yeah, I do a lot of things for myself. Mostly things I like to do around the house (work on my webpage, watch movies I enjoy, work on lesson plans). I have plans to get my hair done and have dinner with my mom on Thursday. I know that the GAL stuff is supposed to help and it does to a certain extent. But at the end of the day I still have to come home to a missing husband.

I know it will take me a long time to get over the worrying. The first time he did this, back in December, I was up all night throwing up because I was so worried. At least I don't feel that bad. But my heart is racing and I feel really anxious.

As stupid as this sounds, when he is here with me, things are good. We are friends. We laugh together and joke together. I enjoy his company and I believe he enjoys mine.

I just have trouble with a 37 year old staying out until 2am on a Tuesday night. It doesn't seem responsible or wise. Maybe it is because I grew up with a mom telling me that "nothing good can happen after 11pm."

Well I am going to get ready for bed and try to make myself sleep. I will just sort of doze until I hear the click of the door and know he is home. If I take sleeping pills I have a lot of trouble waking up in the morning.

What a life....

Sara