So.... the thing my W decided to stay alone? It turned out is total BS, dah... (normal ups and downs of a new R.... she said)I should just stop to think about it - at the end is going to be what is going to be. Today I enjoyed the day with D. W picked her up an hour late...... typical. She tried to make some conversation, but I am so not in the mood, so I didn't follow up and cut short. I don't even know anymore if this is what I am suppose to do.... for sure I am detaching.... but not "lovingly" detaching. I noticed that less I talk to her better I feel, so I go this way. I am also thinking that maybe I should start dating somebody, not that I want to start a new relation, but I do need some self esteem boost. I also feel that SHE is dating somebody, so I also want to make it even. I know it is childish, but I think it would sooth the pain a bit. I hate to think that OM is going in MY home, is sitting on MY couch, eating on MY table, sleeping in MY bed.
