MLC BS

[Patrick325]

I really wish this were all over. I am feeling very drained by it all. My W is not paying her half of the bills and we will probably lose our house and ruin our credit. My kids called me today and were at the mall with my W and the OM. They sounded like they were having fun and it hurt to talk to them. I can't handle thinking I am no longer the "only man" in their lives. It was one of the things I worried about when we first split....another fear realized....sometimes I think about just leaving and not coming back...just a fantasy...I couldn't leave my kids...but sometimes you feel like you don't matter to anyone so you could just move to South America or somewhere and just start new....my old life is gone forever