I think you might be right but I also don't think she is concious of it. I guess I'll just have to be patient (not one of my virtues) and wait and see.
She has now told me she is hanging out with ex this Sunday and she is planning a road trip to their mutual friend's wedding which he might also attend. She also mentioned that she asked her current BF to go with her and he had no interest. Hmmm...
And in other "Silly Stuff" notes - I continue to have weird dreams about my ex. I seem to have one app once a week. STILL - years later.
In last night's dream (very fresh in my mind), it was Christmas and I was dropping off the kids (Ryan and Ashley) for their Christmas visit with him in the parking lot of a discount store (I've never done that before). He got out of the car with a young toddler (1.5 year old) boy all weighed down with a snowsuit. Seems he and maggot had a baby and never mentioned it. Boy - have I been reading MSF's thread or what???? I was mortified as were my kids, but he just carried on like it was normal.
I looked him straight in the eye and said "Who would have ever thought that this is what would have become of us. It's UNF...INGBELIEVABLE"." To which he replied "Yep, it's UNF...INGBELIEVABLE!!!"
I wanted to rip his face off again. I always want to rip his face off. I guess I still have repressed anger. It usually comes out in my dreams. DUH...
It is dress rehearsal day. Usually one of the craziest days of the year. I am strangely organized and calm. This is good. I have only 3 more days of work. YEAH!!!!
Hey Barb! Thought I'd stop by and visit while I'm over here. I don't get to the bb often and I miss my old friends.
It sure does sound as though you have a lot of anger toward ex. I think it's only natural. I know I have it and I think most everyone does. I just try not to think of the things he did, etc. I can still get myself worked up if I bring them to mind. But sometimes you just can't help it. There are still triggers. If he's around me and his cell rings, well, that's a huge trigger for me. And the anger surges back to the surface.
I have an occ. dream too. I had one a week or so ago and I had to tell him about it. I dreamed that he came over and the whole top of his head in the middle was completely bald. His hair has been thinning for a long time. He laughed when I told him. His dad was bald except for a little bit of hair around the edges of his head. I think I dreamed that b/c he always looks so good and it pi$$es me off.
Oh well, no time to dwell on the dumb a$$es. Life is pretty darn good for you for the most part and that's all that counts, eh? Same here.
Hey SE: Hope your birthday was great! Thanks for stopping by.
Yes, I do have some anger still, may always, but I hope not. I do think of my ex in some form every day. But the anger usually surfaces in those occasional dreams - doesn't take over my life. So I guess that's good.
Daughter Update...
More talk of trips with friends etc. Not one word about "moving out". Hmmmm...
Last night was rehearsal (which went extremely well). When we got home, Ash waited for her BF to call. He had said he would call to let her know if he was going to be home or go out with friends. He NEVER hangs out with friends - its like the 2 of them are inseparable but now she is talking of hanging with others this week so...
Well, he never called and finally after 2 hours she called him. He had gone out but not bothered to call her. Boy - was she mad. Then he had said he wasn't sure if he was going to hang with her tonight or with his friends. And wasn't sure about coming to the dance recital -might be hanging with his friends. Hmmmm...
Jilly - I think you called this one right. Of course she hasn't figured it out yet and I'm just remaining the good, loving, supportive Mom. I think I'd better dust off my shoulders because I haven't provided them for a while but I think they'll be put to use this week.
Going out shopping today. YEAH - every girl's fav hobby. Well, actually I don't usually enjoy it that much but saw an outfit at the mall that I think I'd like to buy to wear tommorrow night. It is perfect - hope it looks perfect on as well.
The sunshine of 7 AM has turned to gloom. I'll concentrate on house cleaning after the shopping. Then I have a media interview later in the day. I'll tell you about it when I get a chance.
Good luck with the recital. I miss my recital days. In the school that my girls went to if you were put front and center that meant you were good and my girls were always there. Thing is I don't know where they got it expecially since I refused to go and I quit my classes when I was 5. I must have been a real pain in the butt. (Somethings never change huh?)
I'm so glad to hear that things have mellowed out with Ash. Playing it cool usually makes everything more peaceful! You done good!
You're right - playing it cool usually works best. It is so tough to do. She seems ok today. I'm trying to keep the peace. Still, she can be one miserable girl at times. I'm avoiding those times.
Went shopping and got a nice dress for tonight. So that makes me happy. Feeling quite stressed but that is very normal for this day. There is not much that will likely go wrong but I do believe in Murphy's Law and I will spend my entire day trouble shooting and tying up any loose ends.
Went to the media interview yesterday. It was about one of my students. It went quite well. I'd like to tell you about him.
Chris has been a dance student in my studio for the past 23 years! He also has Down's Syndrome. He came to the studio as a little boy as his older sister danced. He would watch and wanted to participate. Mom asked me how I felt about it. Well, Chris is the same age as Ryan. At that time, I was trying to rehabilitate Ryan since it was shortly after his encephalitis and resultant brain damage. Ryan had danced prior to his illness. I hoped to get him back to it again. But it was not to be. I figured I might be able to give someone else the chance Ryan did not have, so I took on Chris.
Chris is a very loveable guy. Always has a hug for me. Dance gave him a whole new world. He says it is "his whole life". As an adult he now takes on the role of planning his own theme for the year, designs his own costume and attempts to run the show. (I don't let him get away with it). He does steal the show every year. His charm and talent win over everyone. I try to feature him in our curtain call number each year that involves all the dancers. This year he is our "Patrick Swayze" as we do "Dirty Dancing".
The newspaper is interested in featuring Chris and showing others how acceptance and integration can do wonders for those with disabilities. As I said before - I could do for Chris what I could not do for my own Ryan.
Anyway, it will be a very busy day and I'd best get to it. It is coold and that is a good thing since it tends to make everyone calmer - AC or no AC!
Josh is coming to recital for the first time. Guess he should see what I actually do for a living. I will let you know how it goes after he leaves which will likely be Sunday!
Barb, Good luck on the recital!!! I loved it when my D was in dance, however, once she discovered sports she was outta there. I was soooo disappointed but at least I was done cramming her wiggling, hot sweaty little body into those costumes!!!
His hair has been thinning for a long time. He laughed when I told him. His dad was bald except for a little bit of hair around the edges of his head. I think I dreamed that b/c he always looks so good and it pi$$es me off. 
