I totally understand NLT, my wife and I were chasing each other around the house for fun less than a week before the bomb. I have been in so many situations as a musician where one could have been tempted but I never was and she never made me think twice about her either. I understand the rug being pulled out. It has been almost 5 months now and I still feel the bump on the back of my head. But the swelling is going down