Jay, thank you so much!!!! I know you all know what I'm going thru, my family & frinds can sympathize but they just don't understand. I work in the studio sometimes as assistant, I'm usually the only girl there but they all knew I was happily married, H would even come by the studio at times. He used to say something about me around all those guys everytime I was in the studio. I just blew it off & told him he was the only one for me & that was the truth.
I'm not sure why tonight is so hard!!! 3 weeks prior to 5/8/02, we went thru a lot with his family, his Dad died on 5/8 & he is always down at this time of year. I just tried to be here for him & now he is with someone else.
This weekend will be a month since I've heard from him, other than getting the alimony check & hearing from OW thanking me! Anyway, I just miss him!! I keep hoping that he will call me. Our oldest dog is having some kidney failure, I did tell him when he was here & he was very concerned. I'm really having a hard time getting her to eat, so that is weighing on me too. These 2 dogs are just like kids & I just can't loose her right now. They both have been so great for me, but it still doesn't replace H.
Thank you all for letting me vent! I keep hoping this will be over soon with OW!!! And I hope he would try to come back to me!! He claimed he had been lonely for years but I know MLCer's re-write history. He sure didn't show it. He lost his wedding ring the year before & he was so upset, told me he wanted that one back b/c "I gave it to him on our special day" That was about 8 months before he met OW. 6 months before he bought me an SUV for Xmas. I never dreamed in a million years he would do this!!! It's all like a nightmare & I keep hoping that I will wake up & he will be here.
