Maybe for the last few weeks, but during our 19y together, I have come to realize that I really treated her like crap.
She deserves better and SHOULD have been treated like a princess. There was nothing, and I mean nothing, she did in our marriage that made me do and say the things that I did.
I took advantage of her good nature, her kindness and she put up with it for a long time.
I have always told friends, family, coworkers, anyone that would listen, that she is one of the few truly good hearted people I have ever met in my life. I do not believe I ever told her that, though.
She is a princess and if I lose her, I will have no one to blame but myself...simple.
