She won't tell you the times she wavers from her "100%" -- a little bit because that would get your hopes up, and a little bit of " then I have to get the guts up to tell him again" or "after all of this I can't believe I could have really made a mistake!" You are right. She won't tell you if she is feeling differently yet.
You can't really take personally anything she says right now. But, you do need to listen reflectively from a "scientific, detached, kind of view point. You can learn from that. You want to be able to do that.
Also, you need to validate, even within yourself, that what she is saying right now, she really believes. She put a lot of thought into it. It's a (grimms)fairy tale, but she believes it right now.
Like the day you learned there was no Santa Claus (or in my little brother's case, no tooth fairy), it will hurt when reality and the fairy tale collide.
You have a long way to go. I won't lie, you're on the toughest journey of your life. However, you do have it in you. Make it your best moment.
Don't worry about "months and months". Do what you need to today. You always have options, now you're working on more choices.
