I'm really having a hard time tonight!!! I want to talk to him so bad I can hardly stand it! I miss him so bad & can't believe he is with a slut like that OW!! I was good to him & faithful, I would have never gone astray. Sometimes I work around a lot of musicians, (men) some would flirt but I wouldn't flirt back. I was totally in love with my H & I'm having such a hard time giving him up.
He was so different these last few months. He even cussed me out one night, he was upset b/c we were going to mediation & it was going to cost so much. He came back 3 days later & apologized but still I can't believe he would talk to me like that!! Never has he ever talk to a woman like that, especially me!! I got that on tape, my H didn't know it at the time but he does now. We didn't go to court so the judge never knew but the mediator did. I don't know if that was used against him or not.
I did a lot of snooping to find out about OW, he had just told me he wasn't happy & didn't love me anymore. I knew he had to have someone else. He said I did some under handed things, I guess my snooping but he stayed in the same house with me for 5 months after he told me he wanted D so I had to find out, I became a pretty good PI. I knew about OW about 6 weeks before he knew that I had caught him. It was so hard not to say anything to him when he would tell me that I had disengaged from our marriage. I know now all the things he said to me that was wrong with me was his guilt but my L told me not to say anything about OW. And when he went to TX for Thanksgiving & Xmas, I knew where he was going. He just lied. All the things he told me he felt was wrong with our M was nothing we could not have fixed. It was simple things, it just didn't make sense.
Why do I want him back so bad after the way he has treated me, I don't know. I just always felt like we were meant to be together & he was God sent to me. I was about to move back to Alabama, there was no reason for me to be here, so I just prayed about it, the next week he asked me out on a date & the rest is history. He is the love of my life!
I'm sorry for going on like this, but I'm crying my eyes out right now & I so appreciate you all being there for me!!!
