Just an interesting little note. Yesterday I spoke with a neighbor I had invited to my H's little surprise b-day thing. Even though he's not one of H's friends, I wanted to have a couple kids there for our kids to play with since all of H's new friends are childless. He stopped by to say sorry for jetting out so quickly, but he just couldn't stand to be there. H's boss is very boastful (the matching Ducatis) and neighbor said he got tired of the "Brian Show" with all his stories. He said he's a pretty laid back person, but that it was just a room full of snobs and he just couldn't take it anymore. I told him I understood. There's a couple of really cool people in this group, but the louded four are very uppity and snobby.

Then a few minutes ago another neighbor said, "Hey, what was going on at your house Sunday night? Those vehicles parked in front were crazy! I haven't seen that many nice cars in one place in a long time." This from a guy who drives a 5-series BMW. We live in a nice neighborhood, but a neighborhood full of families. Not the kind of people who drive cars like the ones that showed up on Sunday.

Last night I was talking to my H and told him that as I was on my hands and knees wiping up spilled milk from the floor I thought to myself that there's no way our life, or I, could compete with his new friends. He responded that it wasn't a competition, which I acknowledged, but still told him that that life isn't me, isn't ours. While I enjoy his friends for the most part, and a couple of them are good friends of mine, it's generally not a crowd I yearn to be part of. He told me he doesn't care about the expensive toys and I told him that it was OK to want those things, but that cars and trips to the South of France isn't going to happen unless we stay together and I get a job. That we could get some of that together, but it wasn't going to happen apart, and if we did get some of that I think we'd still be much more grounded because we have kids and can't just think of ourselves.

This is when I start thinking there's a little MLC going on.


Me: 42/H: 37
T: 10 years/M: 8
D9, S8
Bomb: 7.23.07
Separated: 1.20.08
D Final 3.19.09
Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09

My life is good.