I can only hold out hope that as you all say, the truth will come through.
As for me, I know I'm different and I'm better. Thank you for seeing my growth and changes. It means a lot to hear the support of others and makes it worthwhile to continue to push forward through this BS.
I'm being as genuine as I can, which is why I don't fear being deposed by my W's L. They will hear the same stories and facts I've told you all here, the same I've told my T, and the same the parenting evaluator has heard. I've made plenty of mistakes in my marriage and I will admit to them all, but I've also told the truth, which is something my W can't say.
I swear my W should write fiction or screen plays for the Lifetime or Oxygen Networks based on how much she's been able to turn me from someone who is charming, loving and "normal" in public but turns into an evil A-Hole at night. I wonder if her stories about me involved a full moon. Maybe she was in cahoots w/ Ali and her lunar charts when she began dating some of these "horrific" events that happened b/t us.
Oh, well. I digressed and became sarcastic. Sorry about that. In any event, to be honest, not only do I want the truth to come out, but I really and truly do want my W to be happy. I want her to be able to face whatever it is that scares the crap out of her and work on herself being healthy and happy. She said I was controlling and she wanted to be free from me, but I really think she needs to be free from herself.
I still miss her and I'll always love her, but I'm beginning to see now that I'll be fine and I'll land on my two feet...kind of like a cat, except they have four feet.
