Real life's getting more like fiction each day....

[Starshyne]

These are all good questions that I have been thinking about for several days. One thing that stands out in my mind is that I don't drink. I have only had alochol once in my life and that was on my wedding day. Hanging out in a bar has never been my idea of a good time. However, I don't look down on anyone that does and I wouldn't mind doing that every once in awhile (especially if there is singing!) So maybe H thinks that I will think less of him if I knew he was a bar. Plus...going to a bar is so out of character for my H (the guy I knew who has a degree in preaching). Maybe there is a little conviction in him in that area?

I do call. I call WAY WAY WAY too much. I call, I text, I text I leave voice mail. That needs to end! Typically I am not "up" at 2am when he arrives home to talk to him. I am normally somewhat awake, but I do not want to make it look like I am staying up for him. Plus I do have to work the next day. But I do ask him later if he had a good time and he usually tells me that he didn't have a good time, he was bored, it wasn't any fun.

The big thing that I need to do is to stop calling and bothering him. I guess the thing that REALLY peeves me off is that I don't know where he is. Is he at a bar? Is he with OW? Is he dead on the side of the road? My mind would be at ease if he would just call and say "Sara, I am going to be out at a bar tonight." But I think he feels uncomfortable with that because he believes I will nag at him to come home (which you know...I might because I honestly don't like him doing this, but I am going to stop the nagging).

More things for me to think about.