A question for the troups... I’m sure many of you have gone through this... so how do you get over the hump?
Officially, now we’re separated a week... and I’m finding myself increasingly feeling like: Maybe I really don’t want this person in my life. Even after a “week” of being separated, I’m starting to feel more like this hour by hour. I just want the pain and this nightmare to stop.
I mean.....WHY, WHY, WHY!? do I want this person in my life... after all, he’s given me an emotional kick in the stomach and heart? He’s hurt be beyond belief... he’s rejected me etc etc etc.
How do I get to detached without complete and total hatred or disgust and bouncing in and out of indifference? (Cuz that’s now what I’m feeling).
How am I ever going trust this person again, let along forgive him for what he’s done to us?
We’re supposed to “potentially” have our first weekly date tonight (once a week according to talks and plans leading up to the separation)... and I had to remind him of it... he’s booked himself pretty solid,...almost as though he wanted to be too busy to do it.
The way I feel,... I’m not even sure I want to see him... and yet, I know I’ll be disappointed if he cancels...scratch that... RENEGES on this “friendship” restart right out of the starting blocks.
Why do I get the sick feeling that after all the "promises" we said about separating to "try" to rebuild... it was all BS? *sigh*
Abbey
Abbey, I can relate on this one. W moved out on April 19th, so it's been about two weeks. Going into the S, our talks were very positive. Talked about dates with each other, and late night invites to the apartment. We have a subscription to Netflix so I went out and bought her a DVD player so we could do movies at her apartment.
So the reality? A complete turnaround. She told me that seeing each other so soon would be counterproductive. Told me that she is happy being alone and needs the time to focus on herself.
Like you, I am beginning to feel indifferent to the whole thing. Now I'm asking myself if I really want her back. I've been very busy the past couple weeks and am happy just focusing on myself and then the kids on 'my' weeks. Didn't think I would get to this point so quickly.
