Well my H asked me to go for the walk today and I agreed. We met for about a half hour walk with the dog. He was friendly and we did a lot of small talk and just caught up on our lives.
He said that last night he went home after his gig, when normally he would go out and party with the rest of the band. The band all went out, but my H said he went home. I think he was trying to show me that he is willing to cut down on his drinking/partying - but we will see with time.
It was kind of an awkward walk/talk for both of us. We both are so used to just being a H and W, but now we sometimes dont even know what to say to each other. I hope that smooths out over time.
He talked alot about all his new friends and that kind of bugs me. I think he has all intentions on continuously hanging out with many of them, but who knows. That will be really awkward for me, since most of them are 8-10 years younger than us and just want to party alot. I hope we can find a happy medium.
My H doesnt seem to be working a lot either, that will have to change. He owns his own business so he makes his own schedule. He doesnt seem to be worried since he will live rent free for june. I hope he has some plans for getting serious about his career.
Well, I told him that I had to go bowling tonight on a spring league I am just starting. So we went our seperate ways. I said that hopefully we can take another walk again this week sometime, and he said he would text me so we can get together.
This all feels so weird. I dont really know how to explain it. I guess I am really skeptical that he will do what it takes this time to help us heal. But I keep praying that he will.
